April 17th - Words not said

Words not said

I only remember the past.

I don't have a future. Only a present.

Memories haunt me, replayed over, a thousand times.

Dying faces, mouths open.

I constantly play time lines, thinking words that will not be said

And the consequences of those words

That will  not happen.

Thinking again.  In my head

starting unfinished conversations.

Contemplating your reactions to my words.

And my anger and disappointment at your answers.

That you will never make.